I would appreciate some advice. I have a habit of rambling so will try not to type too much. Basically for quite a while now I have began to realise that I worry FAR too much and realise I need to stop. I think it has taken me this long because for ages I was convinced that my problem was just the little things I was worried about, like "well, when this is fixed, then I can stop worrying about it!" but now it's like.... I'm constantly looking for things to worry about? And I can't stop (although it is getting a little better and Im thankful that Im at least aware.)
A few examples... I think this might have started last summer, actually... basically, last summer I went to take an HIV test.... for about a year or so leading up to taking the test on the back of my mind had sort of been a little worry that I could have HIV. It was mainly due to a few one night stands that I was worried about. But basically, my worrying over this int he week up to taking the test was just RIDICULOUS. LIke, I was constantly googling to find statistics and stuff and just obsessing, and the day I went to the clinic I was so scared. Thankfully it was negative. Anyways.. I think after that, I began to just find things to worry about. It has ranged from the bizarre to the ridiculous. For example, last December I had to go to a Visa interview so I could come to study to America... For whatever reason, I was literally like TERRIFIED before it, like I worried about every little detail, was convinced I was not going to be accepted and despite the fact that I'm so lucky to get the opportunity it felt like it would be the end of the world if it went wrong!
There was also this thing before Christmas I went to the doctors about due to this weird hair loss on my legs that, again, I decided to frantically worry about despite her assuring me it wasn't a big deal. And this past month I was actually worried (wait for it) that I had accidentally plagiarised in some of my Uni course-work, because I did the stupid thing you're not supposed to do of reading something once you've submitted it and was nitpicking. I was reading up on anxiety and stuff and I read this thing that was like sometimes it's the uncertainty that makes people with anxiety feel so bad? I kind of feel like that's what it is! Like, for example.... With that plagiarism thing, I realised it was a TOTAL long-shot and would not happen but a part of me was like "If I have done that... I could get expelled! I might have no future!" and even the knowledge that there was like a TINY .1% chance scared the hell out of me.
I just want advice and help. Im in America for the next few months (healthcare and stuff is expensive so I don't want to go see a doctor here, or go on medication or anything whilst away from home)> And I think I am coping well with it and I am getting a LITTLE better... I just want to know if this is normal and how other people have gotten over it.
A few examples... I think this might have started last summer, actually... basically, last summer I went to take an HIV test.... for about a year or so leading up to taking the test on the back of my mind had sort of been a little worry that I could have HIV. It was mainly due to a few one night stands that I was worried about. But basically, my worrying over this int he week up to taking the test was just RIDICULOUS. LIke, I was constantly googling to find statistics and stuff and just obsessing, and the day I went to the clinic I was so scared. Thankfully it was negative. Anyways.. I think after that, I began to just find things to worry about. It has ranged from the bizarre to the ridiculous. For example, last December I had to go to a Visa interview so I could come to study to America... For whatever reason, I was literally like TERRIFIED before it, like I worried about every little detail, was convinced I was not going to be accepted and despite the fact that I'm so lucky to get the opportunity it felt like it would be the end of the world if it went wrong!
There was also this thing before Christmas I went to the doctors about due to this weird hair loss on my legs that, again, I decided to frantically worry about despite her assuring me it wasn't a big deal. And this past month I was actually worried (wait for it) that I had accidentally plagiarised in some of my Uni course-work, because I did the stupid thing you're not supposed to do of reading something once you've submitted it and was nitpicking. I was reading up on anxiety and stuff and I read this thing that was like sometimes it's the uncertainty that makes people with anxiety feel so bad? I kind of feel like that's what it is! Like, for example.... With that plagiarism thing, I realised it was a TOTAL long-shot and would not happen but a part of me was like "If I have done that... I could get expelled! I might have no future!" and even the knowledge that there was like a TINY .1% chance scared the hell out of me.
I just want advice and help. Im in America for the next few months (healthcare and stuff is expensive so I don't want to go see a doctor here, or go on medication or anything whilst away from home)> And I think I am coping well with it and I am getting a LITTLE better... I just want to know if this is normal and how other people have gotten over it.