life sucks; almost uncontrollable rage

i'm here because life sucks. i don't have any physical pain back-stories or any health problems, but my emotional pain goes back. I won't tell you guys everything, but i will tell you one story. in the fourth grade, my mom and dad got in a fight (verbal). my mom and dad had been broken up ever since before my birth. my dad was just visiting and i was just visiting my mom. all i remember was my mom screaming "LOOK AT YOUR SON", not "ours". she told my dad to leave, he left crying. finally my grandma came to bring me back home. that was the story in a nutshell. lately i was alone for almost an entire summer, because i recently moved. i went into a depression because i had no friends here(i have friends now). on Halloween, i went to my counselor, and after a while she asked me if i had ever thought about suicide. i said yes. i ranked high on the risk test. my grandma came and took me to children's hospital and got evaluated even more. i was depressed. i go to a therapist, but recently all my sadness has evaporated into pure rage. as a famous singer once sung, "You are a time bomb ticking away. it takes so little to make me want kill and/or hurt you. i once got in a fight with my friend here, and all my rage quickly turned into sorrow. i really wanna know how to get rid of these feeling, in fear for myself but mostly others.

please help me. I can feel myself lose my mind. It is a feeling that i wouldn't wish on anyone (while i'm calm). I can feel any sense i have not to do bad things shredding away. my whole sense of right and wrong is vanishing. I go to a therapist but i still need help.

the reason i put this in the depression section was because my anger can turn into sorrow really easily.

if you want to hear the rest of my emotional background, just ask me and i'll put it in here at the very bottom.
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extra: try to figure out who i quoted.