This is going to be a bit grueling.
First things first, I am not pissed off, annoyed with (permanently), or generally disgusted by anyone here. I love this community, and I want it to keep going on for as long as possible.
Now, it's why I seem so annoying. I've been going through a really hard phrase of my life, and even though the main part is over, I still see myself as a person who never forgives or forgets. That is a trait I just want to get rid of. Last year, people were calling me paranoid and crazy just because I had some second thoughts about my friends, who to this date, I still don't know if they're friends or not. I was teased constantly by other friends, I was grilled with questions all the time, and I just couldn't take it anymore. So, earlier this year, I decided that enough was enough, so I let my heart out. It wasn't enough though. I said something that I shouldn't have said to this mean girl at my school, and things got worse from there.
I was self-harming. With anything generally. Paper clips, sharp objects, scissors, anything. It got so bad where I just switched off in school, and again, I was grilled with so many questions that I had multiple nervous breakdowns, and I was taken to hospital where I was diagnosed with PPD. I'm still so embarrassed that I think of those days, and I still feel as if I'm worthless. I may look just annoying to you all, but that's where you're wrong. I'm a crazy paranoiac.
Its mainly over now, but I'm waiting for the next school term to see if it gets better or worse. I'm sorry you had to read all of that. So, yeah. That's me.
First things first, I am not pissed off, annoyed with (permanently), or generally disgusted by anyone here. I love this community, and I want it to keep going on for as long as possible.
Now, it's why I seem so annoying. I've been going through a really hard phrase of my life, and even though the main part is over, I still see myself as a person who never forgives or forgets. That is a trait I just want to get rid of. Last year, people were calling me paranoid and crazy just because I had some second thoughts about my friends, who to this date, I still don't know if they're friends or not. I was teased constantly by other friends, I was grilled with questions all the time, and I just couldn't take it anymore. So, earlier this year, I decided that enough was enough, so I let my heart out. It wasn't enough though. I said something that I shouldn't have said to this mean girl at my school, and things got worse from there.
I was self-harming. With anything generally. Paper clips, sharp objects, scissors, anything. It got so bad where I just switched off in school, and again, I was grilled with so many questions that I had multiple nervous breakdowns, and I was taken to hospital where I was diagnosed with PPD. I'm still so embarrassed that I think of those days, and I still feel as if I'm worthless. I may look just annoying to you all, but that's where you're wrong. I'm a crazy paranoiac.
Its mainly over now, but I'm waiting for the next school term to see if it gets better or worse. I'm sorry you had to read all of that. So, yeah. That's me.