I am over crying in bed everynight. I was abused by my 4th grade teacher and am now reallly struggling with it emotionally. I have lost pretty much all my friends as a result, I am detached from the world around me. The only people who seem to care about me are people I don't even know. Today I was told that one of the few friends I have was killed in a car accident. I don't want to be in this dark place all my life, it's not worth living with so much emotional baggage. It stops me from enjoying the things I love. I don't want to die, but if it's the only way to deal with this then I will have to take care of it. No one would notice if i was gone anyway.
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