I am worthless

I'm always depressed, no matter what. Because I feel like that? I want to kill myself. I just, want to die. I have to will to live anymore. They just are not thoughts anymore. I have came close a few times. To where I was actually carrying out the plan. I actually had the item I was going to use in my hands. I just feel worthless all the time, like a burden. I feel that no one wants me. or loves me. If I were to die, no one would care, no one be effected.

I do not know why I feel like this. I have a loving family, wonderful friends, pets, & house. I have A great life. Nothing is bad is going on. I still feel like this though. I still contemplated everyday, I hate myself.