Hi, Ive been living like this for about 3 years...
I know I have to be gay, I watch gay porn all the time and girls rarely turn me on. I get along with a lot of boys my age (15) but they make jokes about gays all the time and I just go along with it because I know I probably am. I always have an urge to stare at boys in my school (sounds pervy ik) and if there is a point in which one touches me or becomes 'exposed' then I always get aroused but I always have to hide it.
Since many people are against gays at my school (I'd be the only one to be gay) it would be hard to be accepted as one. I would almost lose every friend I had and it's be so awkward with family members If I came out...
At the moment It is very difficult, my parents or anyone else knows I am writing this :S
What do I do :/
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I know I have to be gay, I watch gay porn all the time and girls rarely turn me on. I get along with a lot of boys my age (15) but they make jokes about gays all the time and I just go along with it because I know I probably am. I always have an urge to stare at boys in my school (sounds pervy ik) and if there is a point in which one touches me or becomes 'exposed' then I always get aroused but I always have to hide it.
Since many people are against gays at my school (I'd be the only one to be gay) it would be hard to be accepted as one. I would almost lose every friend I had and it's be so awkward with family members If I came out...
At the moment It is very difficult, my parents or anyone else knows I am writing this :S
What do I do :/
Sorry if you've seen this twice:thumbd: