hey
just asking for advice really. I've always been a bit somber but this last year everything has got worse.
I feel completely numb and depressed most of the time and when i don't its anger instead. I'm finding it impossible to focus on anything and i'm painfully indecisive. I get mood swings a lot. I can't deal with stress and when i am stressed or tired i get really dizzy and i start feeling negative and i stop thinking straight.
I've been self harming for about 6 months. Its getting really bad and the cuts are everywhere and they are deep. I've also been feeling really suicidal to the extent that i've been writing suicide notes and planning it. I imagine myself dying all the time.
When it comes to relationships, I cant seem to be able to make my mind up on people, i hate or love them. I'm really aggressive towards adults. I only have 3 close friends, everyone else i don't feel connected to. I feel segregated and isolated. I'm getting paranoid quite a bit, i keep thinking people are talking about me. And then i get angry at them and imagine myself killing them. I feel like i'm in everyone's way. I don't really know where i'm going or what i want, i'm drifting.
My friends think i need help. They think i'm crazy. I think i'm heading for something bad.
Whats wrong with me?
thanks
just asking for advice really. I've always been a bit somber but this last year everything has got worse.
I feel completely numb and depressed most of the time and when i don't its anger instead. I'm finding it impossible to focus on anything and i'm painfully indecisive. I get mood swings a lot. I can't deal with stress and when i am stressed or tired i get really dizzy and i start feeling negative and i stop thinking straight.
I've been self harming for about 6 months. Its getting really bad and the cuts are everywhere and they are deep. I've also been feeling really suicidal to the extent that i've been writing suicide notes and planning it. I imagine myself dying all the time.
When it comes to relationships, I cant seem to be able to make my mind up on people, i hate or love them. I'm really aggressive towards adults. I only have 3 close friends, everyone else i don't feel connected to. I feel segregated and isolated. I'm getting paranoid quite a bit, i keep thinking people are talking about me. And then i get angry at them and imagine myself killing them. I feel like i'm in everyone's way. I don't really know where i'm going or what i want, i'm drifting.
My friends think i need help. They think i'm crazy. I think i'm heading for something bad.
Whats wrong with me?
thanks