Some of you may have seen my earlier threads on how I really REALLY like this guy who I had classes with. On the last day, everyone went to Six Flags and I hung out with him and his friends the whole day, it was a really good day, but that was the day I had planned to tell him that I like him.There were a few times where I could've told him but I waited until we were alone, outside the park, waiting for out rides, it was sprinkling/raining so we went under some cover and I thought that it would be my best chance to tell him by that time. Finally I got the courage to tell him, I was stuttering a little, I was nervous, I wasn't making eye contact, but when I was only THREE WORDS AWAY from telling him, a friend of his came up and started talking to him. I was so pissed, he later left before I could tell him, though his friend was a nice guy. Anyways, I have texted and called him a few times but he hasn't responded since that day and today I left him a voicemail and at this moment he has still not responded even though I gave him a deadline of 12am tonight and I texted my ex from Hoboken for some advice since he's always been there for me and he confirmed the realization that I've had and been told many times but didn't want to be true, he doesn't like me and is too nice to tell me so, he is seriously one of the nicest guys I've met. Now, I'm just sitting here watching his favorite show, "How I Met Your Mother", but I'm not as sad as I thought I would be. My eyes only get watery if I think kinda hard about the situation and I'm not angry even though I probably just wasted 9 months of my life and also the fact that I can't try something similar on his triplet brother and sister because well she's taken and he'd figure it out. Why am I not more angry or sad?
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