Here we go.. I met my boyfriend online, he's brit. He is a nice and funny guy, he promise me to save up to visit my country (in Asia). We do snapchat a lot. Honestly everything was smooth until my paranoid come along.:( I have a traumatic with my ex bf because he cheated on me with my friend. The first thing that he did was added some friends from my bbm and start the chat. For me at that point, Im okay with it. As the time goes, our relationship getting worse, he abused me mentally and psychologically.:MeUgly: He called me fat, and i wasnt allowed to eat (skipped my meal most times) or talk with my friends. At the end, I diagnosed with serve depression and some kind of trust issues. I dont want to blame him for that rather i move forward and try to trust people again. Therefore, I met that new guy online, he told my mum about me, he save alot of money to go here, he mostly update his day on snapchat, and theres a lot more. All these things cant make me "really" trust him. Just a while ago, he added one of my bestfriend on the snapchat that he never chat with her. It just bother me with all the trust that i gave to him. My mind always wondering, is he also add someone that he barely new to the snapchat or facebook (he has alot of "girl" friends there). Someone just tell me, what should I do? I mean it, like if I'm with him, this question always bother me and if I ask him, will he tell me the truth? and I really love him. I mean it since I try to trust someone and I just did! Sometimes, I hate myself. Idk what to do ...:??
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