So by the title im sure youre going to assume that im going to complain like a normal teen about my parents and how i dont get my way and crap.. Nah. Btw please if youre gonna comment here oh they have a right they are your parents dont bother to comment.
Im quite overwhelmed to be honest. My parents are very over protective. My dad is a pastor and my mom is a youth pastor, so they have weird philosophies on how to raise us and always have. Dad and i have never gotten along because hes not my biological dad it was a step-parent adoption. Im tired of the over protective but thats only a small portion of it. Im 17 and im to the point now im like if you hold me back im not going to experience this stuff and when i get out into the world im gonna be so unexperienced even more so than other teens because i was not allowed to make choices on my own. And i realize this and they dont and thats sad. For example they can tell you all day all your life dont do this and this it will hurt you but you dont truly learn unless you learn it yourself. Like (this is a weird example i know) but a little kid touching a stove you can tell them dont do that it will hurt but it wont teach them as much as them trying to do it and learning ouch that hurts i shouldnt do that again.
i have a twitter account and cant even tweet . My parents have it set to where it alerts their phone when i tweet and every other device they have and dad looks and me and asks why i put that or questions it or starts arguing with me about it. They took my facebook. logged into it and changed my password. deleted the email account it was linked to. I cant text around my parents. Ill sit there on the couch dads like who are you texting and i saw who then he goes through my phone and asks why i sent this message and that message why did you say that? It's my conversations and i would understand if i had given them a reason to be this way but i havent.
our school gives every student a laptop for school use all notes and crap are on the laptops. I dont use it for bad things obviously. The other day dad demanded my log in info the school monitors it he doesnt need to. If i was doing anything wrong the school would have taken my laptop instantly and talked to someone about it. Im just annoyed and frustrated i feel like im always having my privacy violated and i havent given a reason for it to be.
My health situation all my life and especially right now, im gonna be honest im not exaggerating im lucky to be alive right now and the doctors have said that. Lately my seizures have went off the charts crazy and we dont know how to stop it or whats causing it. I have epilepsy and originally they thought these recent ones were PNES.. But now they have rules that out and we have to go to more doctors to try o fix it figure out what it even is. On top of that a year ago i was told i was pre diabetic and now my blood sugar is really bad. Ive needed to go to an oral surgeon for the past while because i have an absessed tooth and four cysts in my mouth that they said may be cancerous and i need surgery but my parents are in denial. Theres constantly something wrong with me and its not bc im a hypochondriac its because im legit sick but i cannot mention it to my parents because they cant handle more than one thing at a time they have the luxury of ignoring it but i do not its all at once for me always has been. They make it out like im making it up but not and others see it the doctors see it the nurse at school sees it and tells them but they wont listen because they are in denial. They are convinced i will get better and normal if they pray enough. I randomly pee myself and its nothing i can help it just happens but they yell at me for it . I have reactions to new foods almost every day and they get mad at me.
Theres so much more i could say im so overwhelmed and im hurting bc of all of it nobody will listen and i want to talk to them but they wont listen they never have.
Sorry for the typos im on my phone and its horrible to type with i may expand later when i can get on my laptop. If youre reading this thanks. Im quite shattered inside.
Im quite overwhelmed to be honest. My parents are very over protective. My dad is a pastor and my mom is a youth pastor, so they have weird philosophies on how to raise us and always have. Dad and i have never gotten along because hes not my biological dad it was a step-parent adoption. Im tired of the over protective but thats only a small portion of it. Im 17 and im to the point now im like if you hold me back im not going to experience this stuff and when i get out into the world im gonna be so unexperienced even more so than other teens because i was not allowed to make choices on my own. And i realize this and they dont and thats sad. For example they can tell you all day all your life dont do this and this it will hurt you but you dont truly learn unless you learn it yourself. Like (this is a weird example i know) but a little kid touching a stove you can tell them dont do that it will hurt but it wont teach them as much as them trying to do it and learning ouch that hurts i shouldnt do that again.
i have a twitter account and cant even tweet . My parents have it set to where it alerts their phone when i tweet and every other device they have and dad looks and me and asks why i put that or questions it or starts arguing with me about it. They took my facebook. logged into it and changed my password. deleted the email account it was linked to. I cant text around my parents. Ill sit there on the couch dads like who are you texting and i saw who then he goes through my phone and asks why i sent this message and that message why did you say that? It's my conversations and i would understand if i had given them a reason to be this way but i havent.
our school gives every student a laptop for school use all notes and crap are on the laptops. I dont use it for bad things obviously. The other day dad demanded my log in info the school monitors it he doesnt need to. If i was doing anything wrong the school would have taken my laptop instantly and talked to someone about it. Im just annoyed and frustrated i feel like im always having my privacy violated and i havent given a reason for it to be.
My health situation all my life and especially right now, im gonna be honest im not exaggerating im lucky to be alive right now and the doctors have said that. Lately my seizures have went off the charts crazy and we dont know how to stop it or whats causing it. I have epilepsy and originally they thought these recent ones were PNES.. But now they have rules that out and we have to go to more doctors to try o fix it figure out what it even is. On top of that a year ago i was told i was pre diabetic and now my blood sugar is really bad. Ive needed to go to an oral surgeon for the past while because i have an absessed tooth and four cysts in my mouth that they said may be cancerous and i need surgery but my parents are in denial. Theres constantly something wrong with me and its not bc im a hypochondriac its because im legit sick but i cannot mention it to my parents because they cant handle more than one thing at a time they have the luxury of ignoring it but i do not its all at once for me always has been. They make it out like im making it up but not and others see it the doctors see it the nurse at school sees it and tells them but they wont listen because they are in denial. They are convinced i will get better and normal if they pray enough. I randomly pee myself and its nothing i can help it just happens but they yell at me for it . I have reactions to new foods almost every day and they get mad at me.
Theres so much more i could say im so overwhelmed and im hurting bc of all of it nobody will listen and i want to talk to them but they wont listen they never have.
Sorry for the typos im on my phone and its horrible to type with i may expand later when i can get on my laptop. If youre reading this thanks. Im quite shattered inside.